Submit? Eeek.

I couldnt wait to get married. Pick up dirty socks? Yes. Make dinner every night? Gladly. Let my husband be the leader of our household? With out question. Make love every night? Oh yea!

Well.

All of that became a little more complicated about 6 months into marriage. One of those in particular has struck a chord with me recently; allowing my husband to be the leader of our home or "submitting". We are currently in a life group with our church, The City Life , and our last meeting was about the roles of husband and wife and what they mean. The mens part was first and of course I  enthusiastically agreed with everything they had to say. Then they got to the women and mentioned the word....submit.

                                             I do not like that word.

So much so, that I could barely even say it. Barely even say it! Not without feeling some sort of anomosity towards the term. Now God himself made it clear that this is what I am supposed to do. "Wives, submit to your own husbands, as to the Lord" Ephesians 5:22. As to the Lord - if I am not submitting to my husband very well, then I am probably not submitted to God very well. Ouch.

Now, honestly, I don't know exactly what submitting to my husband looks like in day to day life. But I want a marriage that thrives, and a walk with God that is all consuming. And I have the feeling that God just can't wait to show me the areas where I am trying to maintain control!

What about you? Does the word submit make your gut cringe? Do you feel you are pretty good at handing over all authority to your hubby? To God?